I’m looking up different prenatal yoga classes online, and also found a childbirth education class tailored for VBAC births. These sites are triggering an emotional response and I keep tearing up! The memories of Meadow’s labor and birth are still so poignant and intense. I’m excited to try it again, and terrified as well. I wonder how things will go this time. Will I manage the pain as magnificently? For how long? Will it be easier or more difficult? Are we going to be okay without a doula?

Vacillating between anxiety, excitement, and hope, I just need to remember that it’s all good – and to breathe.